UNRAVEL, THEN SPRING FORTH
Hey there!
You are going to learn a lot about me on this blog if you stick around, but here are some basics:
~ I am known as ~
Aunt Sissy to my siblings' kids
to enjoy Asian Dramas
a night owl
an introvert with an occasional side of sassiness
a YHWH Chaser
Known
I self-published my first book, Unraveling Our Story: A Voice for Women in A Porn Addiction, in the summer of 2022. Afterwards the Lord told me to create a blog. I made a skeptical face at Him and asked, "A blog? What would I even write?" He whispered through my thoughts, Create the blog and the materials will come.
I heard Him, but my fears shouted louder. I don't have an online voice; I don't know anything about blogging; no one would want to read the posts; I don't have anything to say - let alone to constantly post a writing piece. Blogging seems more vulnerable than publishing a book. With a blog I may see how readers respond which feels like a hot potato coming out of the oven - I don't want to touch that heat. Do I really want to slide my foot out into the sunshine and leave the shadow of the tree?
Why is the prospect of becoming a blogger scary? I'm afraid to bare all, to be known, and then to be rejected. I've hidden in this comfortable shadow the majority of my life and to step out into the light is both inviting and unbalancing.
A friend made a pondering comment about this blog: maybe the Lord wants me to record my journey with Him through the blog. Period. I shifted my perspective. I was too focused on who may read my blog, know me, and find me lacking. The truth is I am already known; my Heavenly Father knows me. This blog could remain unread, yet I am still known. He journeyed through every unraveling and will continue in the future unravelings. Pause. Whoa! A mental weight lifted from my mind knowing I don't have to compete with an unknown audience to be known and accepted, because I know He knows me, loves me, and calls me qualified. I receive this truth. The light - the sunshine - beckons me to surrender the fear and step forth to embrace the truth despite the unknowns.
Funny. I did an unplanned mini unraveling.
Holy Spirit, You're so cool.
You Know All About Me
"Lord, you know everything there is to know about me.
You perceive every movement of my heart and soul,
and You understand my every thought before it even enters my mind.
You are so intimately aware of me, Lord.
You read my heart like an open book and You know all the words I'm about to speak before I even start a sentence!
You know every step I will take before my journey even begins.
You've gone into my future to prepare the way, and in kindness You follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past.
With Your hand of love upon my life, You impart a blessing to me.
This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible!
Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength. . .
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"You formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside and my intricate outside, and wove them all together in my mother's womb.
I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything You do is marvelously breathtaking.
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly You know me, Lord!
You even formed every bone in my body when You created me in the secret place,
carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something.
You saw who You created me to be before I became me!
Before I'd ever seen the light of day, the number of days You planned for me were already recorded in Your book.
Every single moment You are thinking of me!
How precious and wonderful to consider that You cherish me constantly in Your every thought!
O God, Your desires toward me are more than the grains of sand on every shore!
When I awake each morning, You're still with me. . .
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"God, I invite Your searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
See if there is any path of pain I'm walking on,
and lead me back to Your glorious, everlasting ways--
the path that brings me back to you."
(Psalms 139:1-6, 13-18, 23-24, TPT)